Hello world. I think often of blogging and updating such dear friends and family of what is going on in our world in Florida, but so often am overwhelmed by how much I want to say, and having no idea where to begin.
BUT, today I know exactly what I want to share about. Trust. In our college ministry group (Driven) we have been reading through Proverbs. We were challenged to read one chapter a day... sadly I have already failed. On the bright side, I am really enjoying reading through it though. My eyes have been opened to my laziness and my desire to do what I want to do. In the past few weeks, we have been talking about trust... specifically Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding." I am convinced that if I really took hold of those 11 words, my world would be drastically different.
When talking about that verse, we talked about everything that we trust in instead of the Lord. I am so quick to trust in myself, my husband, my family/friends, and my understanding. It's somewhat natural to trust in those, but so much harder to trust in God. Honestly, the more I ponder that, the more that that makes absolutely no sense. Thanks to good conversations, I've realized that the reason that I trust in me, Jon, family, and friends is because I know them. I know me better than I know anyone else. I know and trust Jon better than anyone else. He has a track record with me. He has proven to me that he is a man of his word, he is faithful, trustworthy, and desires good for me. If he desires to provide good for me, how much more does my heavenly Father desire to provide good? I mean, he gave me Jon as a gift... obviously he will provide good.
Sadly, the reason that I don't trust in God more often is because I don't really know Him. Unless I am spending time in his word and seeking to truly know his character, it will never be easy for me to trust him. As I write that, my heart feels sad. The God of the universe desires to know me, and yet I desire to know man. God does have a proven track record with me, one that far exceeds Jon's and definitely far exceeds mine. Not only has he saved me from spending eternity in hell, he has given me a husband that is more incredible than I ever could have asked for, one that loves me and serves him faithfully, an amazing family, and deep friendships. He provided a job for Jon in the last few weeks in the midst of a scary market, gave me a job, gave us a church family that challenges us, and of course our basic needs... This is a brief overview of his faithfulness in my life.
God is so good. I pray that my desires would be such that I desire his word more than anything else, that I want to know him more than anyone else, and that I would first seek Him and His kingdom and trust that he would provide everything else.
This past week in our small group we were talking about Titus 1:2-
"...for the sake of the faith of God’s elect and(B) their knowledge of the truth, which accords with godliness, 2in hope of eternal life, which God,who never lies,(F) promised before the ages began..." We have this knowledge of truth and eternal life yet our actions don't live it out... This isn't always the case, but for our group we said that it's a struggle. It's so important to be teaching ourselves the gospel daily- reminding ourselves of what Christ did for us, and the promise of eternal life that God PROMISED BEFORE THE AGES BEGAN!! Lord, I pray that I will seek to know you more so that my actions would be a reflection of what I believe to be true and of what you have done in my life. I want to trust in someone bigger than me, one that can do far more than I could ever ask or imagine. Thank you for being faithful and consistent in my world. Teach me to seek you above all else.
What are you trusting in?
I like this post a lot, what a fresh reminder about trust. I too trust in those I know the best and am right there with you on recognizing the need to trust HIM. Such a good reminder.
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